Saturday, March 22, 2014

Journal entry from the air..

Herro.

I wrote this in my notes while I was up in the air on my way to Manila... Wednesday March 19th, 2014

Digging Deep

Digging deep for me isn’t  reaching down “deep" inside for that life altering memory/experience. I learned today that its appreciating the ordinary. How often do we do simple things like walk our dogs, run to the grocery store, talk on the phone, sit and do homework with our kids, make them snacks, listen to their stories about what happened at school? Everyday right? Everyday we do these basic things that we don’t remember years down the road. They are ordinary things that don’t stick out 10 years down the road, but we acknowledge they are there. By this domino effect of my thought process, I realized how much I don’t enjoy the present. (“The power of now” book by Eckhart Tolle) It would explain why when I look at the girls and see pre teens already and wonder what happened to my 5 year old babies!? I’ve been worrying about everything else under the sun for so many years that I didn’t get to enjoy the girls growing up!  I worried about things that every parent and adult has to worry about: rent, car payment, groceries, work, me time, college money for kids. Those are just off the top of my head. Im my finding, I worried and stressed over the little things like, “What am I gonna make for dinner? I want something healthy for the kids but something special that they will ask for all the time” (I loooove my moms chicken casserole, I still ask for it) But while 20 minutes has gone by and then the trip to the grocery store, it has taken 2 hours. Then I come to terms with, “Wow I just wasted that much time and I haven’t even cooked dinner yet” I’ve spent money on ingredients that I won’t use after this dish as well as take time away from my kids. Now Im not saying Ive stopped doing this all together, I’m saying that I did this too often, but still do it. Its GOOD to go out of your way to make something special! Its GOOD to have a goal like a great healthy dinner and achieve it! I’m just saying its NOT good to constantly do very time consuming things because before you know it, your kids are 10 years old and speaking to you like they are in High School! 

It’s not like I don’t spend time with my kids or don’t listen to them, that I’m writing this, its the simple fact that I realized to appreciate the ordinary and not JUST the super spectacular moments like, giving birth or running my first half marathon! Make the “ordinary” moments appreciated and be grateful for them. The way I think is, “Im walking around the grocery store with my kids and letting them get a couple different boxes of cereal because they can’t decide together on one, when there are people that can’t even WALK let alone afford to buy food” Thoughts like that make me appreciate, count my blessings that very second and before I know it, that turned out to be the best grocery store trip with the kids! 

I soul search on a regular basis. It’s how I keep from losing myself and my mind in the times of stress and over flowing plate of concerns. Just go one day at a time and give full attention to the present, it'll keep your stress level at a medium, in my opinion.  Soul searching isn’t done over night. It’s a process of course. It takes a big blow of some sort to really get your inner self to come out. For example, a break up, losing a loved one or even “Silence”. Silence? For me, yes. I talk so much and worried about me, me , me, me that I didn't see what was going on around me! I practiced listening and not talking so much which was EXTREMELY hard for me. (If you’re like me, its a big blow to your ego) I started hearing and listening to my best friend tell me about her day with her husband and the dinner conversations they had, I started watching and understanding why the twins are fighting over who gets what and then coming up with a solution. When at one point I would of said “uh huh, cool, really?” to Tammy or “stop girls or you’re grounded” to my kids. If you re-read my examples, you’ll see that THESE are ORDINARY EVERYDAY things! Over time, I found that I had soul searched with just one simple practice. LISTENING. I shut my mouth and soaked in everything. HOW SIMPLE. Not easy, but SIMPLE. Much easier to find your self this way then go thru trauma of a lost loved one! BUT with a dramatic event, you do a lot more thinking a re-evaluating of yourself and the decisions you have made and how you can make better choices for your future. Trust me, my last break up, I had some major hang ups about myself and what happened that it left me lost and confused and at one time,very mad and spiteful. I controlled those thoughts with reading and writing or any other positive energy which kept me from “Self Sabotage” mode or that familiar downward spiral when we hit rock bottom.

Im not particularly sure why I decided to share this with my readers, but Im glad I did. Exposing my true thoughts and life experiences is the vulnerability taking over. Im being an open book which allows you to make your own judgements about me, and thats ok. 

I wrote this on my last 3 hours of my flight to Manila. I read a chapter from “The gifts of Imperfections” by BrenĂ© Brown and BOOM, it triggered something in me to write how I think and how the little people work in my brain! To my readers, I’ve always promoted happiness and independence. Several comments on my videos have confirmed that. Im SO grateful.

Have you done your part to promote self worth to others? What did you do today that you can look back on 10 years from now and say, “yea, that was a great day…..!”

PEACE LOVE AND LIPGLOSS

Monday, March 17, 2014

My First time to the Philippines!

Herro.
What a dream this is turning out to be. I have wanted to go to the Philippines for so long. When I was able to share the news with my closest friends and family, they all said, "You have been wanting to go for forever!" I didn't realize it myself, but I have! 

Up until 2 years ago, I never set foot outside of the United States! Unless you count that senior trip I took to Cancun, Mexico... Let's not talk about that. I was 18. Wow. Anyway, here I am sitting at my gate at LAX (Los Angeles) getting ready to board my flight to Manila. EVERY TIME I get ready to travel, eat and have a cocktail in the airport or just sit at my gate, I find myself retracing my steps from my previous years and even months. What have I done with my life to get me in this very spot? So much has changed for me in the past year and once again, I find myself counting and appreciate the blessings that I have been given. Im traveling alone and feel that forever will traveling alone be my peace. I have such heartache leaving my family but for me, traveling has made me and anyone for that matter, a more well rounded individual.

Lately I have stepped away from social media and find myself being more private! I guess its part of growing up. The catty shit you find on social media because I wanna blur the face of my man or because I wanna set records straight from assumptions, has made me have a bad taste in my mouth for even posting! My skin is so thick and almost nothing will even rub me the wring way, BUT sometimes I get the need to let it all be known. I am human and I do have feelings too. I am a woman, I get my period, I get PMS, I have bad days and sometimes I wanna fight back. It's real. Most of time Im too busy with my life and kids to not even pay attention, but damn. 

This post basically has nothing to do with anything, but i'm using this blog as an outlet to my spot in the universe. Im very excited to explore another part of the world. My motherland. Family I have never met but only seen pictures of will all be there! My nana who I miss like crazy is so excited to have her granddaughter come stay! 

Thank you to those who have stuck by my side and have been my road dogs. holler back mami.

PEACE LOVE AND LIPGLOSS

Saturday, January 11, 2014

FOR THE LOVE OF GLITTER


HERRO.
Here I am with another post about makeup. As the title reads, FOR THE LOVE OF GLITTER. I have been eyeballing this Violet Voss beauty in my makeup collection for quite sometime and finally put it to use. I HAVE BEEN MISSING OUT!! I have worn this glitter packed on, (as pictured below)lightly sprinkled on my eyelids as well as placed on the highlights of my neck and collar bones. Glitter by Violet Voss named "TAYLOR" be sure to grab the primer made for loose product. Even with my MAC loose pigments, I used this and it worked wonders. Its not like glue or Duo, and works way better in my opinion. My sensitive eyes loved the primer, so will yours. In my opinion, great for a makeup kit since you never know when your client is going to have an allergy!










LIPTAR From OCC "ZHORA"
MACs Matchmaster Foundation in 5.0
NYX liner in "EVER"
ANDREAS eyelash glue found at Walgreens
MACs #35 Lashes 

PEACE LOVE AND LIPGLOSS

Friday, January 3, 2014

My First Get Ready With Me Video!


Herro.

Soooo, I took a small break from Youtbe recently. Just from my beauty channel thou.. I prefer doing my video journals, they are easy to film and with so much going on in life at the moment, its the only way I can keep posting. BUT,that changed recently for me when I was able to reach out to you guys on Facebook and twitter and the number one request was "GET READY WITH ME" I have watched a few of them and found that it was just filming you getting ready but in super fast motion when it came to the editing! Personally, I find them boring, but as a girl, I love sitting and watching my friends get ready in real life! But if we were to actually film that video and watch in real time, we would be bored as hell. LOL Anyway, here is a stab at my first one! I got a lot of positive comments on it! Any requests for more or anything along those lines are welcome!



PEACE LOVE LIPGLOSS

Thursday, December 26, 2013

Kids Fashion

                   

        

                                         

                                         

                                         

                                      


Friday, November 1, 2013

BLOG SALE

 Herro.
More items for sale! Cleaning out my stuff is such a hassle but came across some good ones.
Check my previous blog post to see what else is still available!

Also please be sure that you know that ALL SALES ARE FINAL.
PAYPAL ONLY.
Check previous post for requirements 

ROCK N REPUBLIC SHOES
Worn several times. High high heel with platform.
Comes with duster bag.
Original Price $450
BLOG SALE $45










BEBE DRESS
Worn once. Around neckline, one little piece came un sown. 
Still in tact. Size Small.
I dont remember what it was brand new. Over $100
BLOG SALE $30












BIG BUDDAH BAG
I used this bag for a couple months but in good condition.
Few scratches on the buttons.
BLOG SALE $10






CELEB BOUTIQUE DRESS
Brand new never worn.
Size small. Hoodie. Sparkle material. Shoulder pads.
BLOG SALE $20